#9

For My.

I am glad that u are finally awake.
U did a good decision.
Take care of yourself,
and continue find you,
yourself a good people who
will appreciate you.

I can't determine which conversion are said with true heart,
and which are said just for consulting purpose.
Or even just for entertaining purpose.
I am getting tired.

#8

There are argument, fighting everywhere.
Including my own class.
Initially, I couldn't think that we would end up with a fighting.
Which she kept it for long time.
Feel so sorry for her, even though I can sense that,
she don't really like me.

Making a decision without telling others,
or discussing with them,
that's what we called unfair.

They fight.
And I am in the middle, Again.
Both side are my good friend,
or I should say,
my another family.

Just like back to the past,
fighting for a same issue,
it's dramatic, and even her characteristic,
is same to the girl in past.

Lack of attention, lack of love,
lack of trust,
and doesn't really like me.

Everything just like deja vu,
I am just being at the same position,
facing the same type of people,
and unable to help anyone.

Just like back to the past.
3 years ago. I guess?

It's too heavy for me,
when all the burden come at once.

#7

After so long, I am back.
I am greedy.
I wish for someone who really can read my mind,
and tell the others.

Putting on a smile on face,
doesn't really mean I am happy.
Sometime its just like a way to avoid.
Avoid questioning by others.

What is my new year resolution.
The very first essay for MUET during early of the year.
I want to become a good friend for everyone.
I wrote.

I was trying so hard to achieve it,
however it seems doesn't work well.
It ended up I feeling alone.
Over and over again.

I've always said by the others,
''you are a good people.''

I wish I do.
I wish it's came from your heart.
I can't felt any warm from this phrase,
anymore.