#15

I love my classmates, but sometime I hate them too.

There were few times that when I am planning a trip,
when I asked for suggestions or ideas, no one reply me.
I asked over and over again, then only few of them gave responses.

Later, when the progress reached 70-80%,
here comes the comments from them.
-yer dun wan la, there so sien.
-wa so expensive.
-I go before ady la, not fun de la.
-yer this yer that.
I often get mad with this kind of things,
initially I asked for suggestions, no one cares,
until everything almost done, then only comment.
Some cases are even worse, after I explained everything infront,
not even a blink of eyes,
some people ask questions regarding to things that I had explained.

When I plan, you don't give a damn to me,
When the plan done, you give a lot of comment.
When I explain, you don't give a damn to me,
When the explanation done, you ask me to explain again.

Is that all?
Unfortunately, no.

There are some people in my class are so annoying.
They asked me something that answer is in front of them.
For example,
I am passing a namelist about retaking sem 1 exam,
then someone holding the namelist, without looking at it,
then asked me what is this for.
Hello, on the top of the paper already wrote what is it about,
can't you just see through it before you ask me any questions?
And I did told you all what was it before I passed it to you all.

Next,

I dislike people touch me when they are talking.
I meant, you talk to me, I ok,
but what for you keep touching me while you are talking?
can't you just talk like that?
I don't like it.

#14

I lost control, once again.

Isn't a big deal for me to spare effort to the class.
BUT, can't you help me? My strength are limited.
I can't do everything by myself, alone.

I was asking help from you all to cover the notice board,
no one volunteer. Until I had to pick people to do it.

I do understand exam is near, you all want to do revision,
but how about me?

After I raised my volume to pull attention,
hoping to get help from you guys.
The results are disappointing.
only 3 people who volunteered themselves.

Later, 1 of the other class people came and brings the broom
from right corner of class to left corner.
I was securing the cupboard and most of them are sitting and studying.

As the time when I trying to take the broom out of the class,
I heard someone is calling my name over and over again.
I was so frustrated and lost control.
I threw all the things on my hand to the ground and i yelled.

I caught everyone's attention, then I tried to calm myself and bring the stuff out of the class.
And someone came to me and ask where will be her class during exam.
This further increased my anger level and I decided to remain silent.

I hate this.

I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU WANT TO DO REVISION,

BUT CAN'T YOU JUST HELP ME WHEN I SEEKING HELP?

I MEAN,

CAN'T SOME OF YOU ALL VOLUNTEER YOURSELVES TO HELP ME?

WHY YOU ALL ARE SO SELFISH.
FURTHERMORE, WHILE I BUSY CLEANING THE MESS,

YOU ALL STILL WANT TO KEEP ON BOTHERING ME WITH

THOSE QUESTIONS OR THINGS THAT ARE NOT IMPORTANT?
连帮忙也没有，却一直给我找麻烦。

I do enjoy the time with my classmates,
but,
sometimes they are just making me mad.