#14

I lost control, once again.

Isn't a big deal for me to spare effort to the class.
BUT, can't you help me? My strength are limited.
I can't do everything by myself, alone.

I was asking help from you all to cover the notice board,
no one volunteer. Until I had to pick people to do it.

I do understand exam is near, you all want to do revision,
but how about me?

After I raised my volume to pull attention,
hoping to get help from you guys.
The results are disappointing.
only 3 people who volunteered themselves.

Later, 1 of the other class people came and brings the broom
from right corner of class to left corner.
I was securing the cupboard and most of them are sitting and studying.

As the time when I trying to take the broom out of the class,
I heard someone is calling my name over and over again.
I was so frustrated and lost control.
I threw all the things on my hand to the ground and i yelled.

I caught everyone's attention, then I tried to calm myself and bring the stuff out of the class.
And someone came to me and ask where will be her class during exam.
This further increased my anger level and I decided to remain silent.

I hate this.

I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU WANT TO DO REVISION,

BUT CAN'T YOU JUST HELP ME WHEN I SEEKING HELP?

I MEAN,

CAN'T SOME OF YOU ALL VOLUNTEER YOURSELVES TO HELP ME?

WHY YOU ALL ARE SO SELFISH.
FURTHERMORE, WHILE I BUSY CLEANING THE MESS,

YOU ALL STILL WANT TO KEEP ON BOTHERING ME WITH

THOSE QUESTIONS OR THINGS THAT ARE NOT IMPORTANT?
连帮忙也没有，却一直给我找麻烦。

I do enjoy the time with my classmates,
but,
sometimes they are just making me mad.